GRRR

You say it has nothing to do with me, absolutely nothing...i can't help but think it does. It hurts that you tell me something is wrong but don't tell me what... the most i get is "just thinking of how to prevent the issue" WHAT IS THE ISSUE???? You said of it wasn't for this issue you would still be hugging me from Saturday night.......well i really hope this 'issue' goes away because i don't like you like this. I leave in two days and today we're suppose to hang at lunch but i don't know if i want to... you didn't seem very sure about it last night and if you're going to be like this I'm not sure i want to. Ive just had my best guy friend be upset with me because he can't see me before i go and he has something for me. Between you and him not telling me things i was all stressed and i felt like everyone was against me. You mean so much to me and when i told you last night that you are more than just a friend to me all i got was 'yeah'. I hope that you are better for lunch time. BUt I wont be staying afterwards with you to study stats. I need to go home to pack and I wanted to spend quality time with you before I go but you don’t seem to want that so cheer up and make me want to spend time with you., cause two weeks in I shouldn’t be feeling like this!!!

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Jealousy is love ad hate at the same time

Jealousy is no more than feeling alone against smiling enemies.

What difference does it make to you what someone else becomes, or says, or does? You do not need to answer for others, only for yourself.


Oh, the jealousy, the greed is the unraveling. It's the unraveling and it undoes all the joy that could be.

To cure jealousy is to see it for what it is, 

a dissatisfaction with self

Jealousy

Never hate those people who are jealous of you but respect their jealousy because they are the ones who think that you are better than them.

"Beware my lord, for jealousy is the green eyed monster that doth mock the meat it feeds on"

you've read it, you know what i mean. Jealousy eats you up from the inside out. its a disease. I would just like to let you know that he did not chose me because I'm the pretty one, the sporty one or any of that crap. He sees me for who i am, not what i look like or what i do. I get that guys like him are few and far between but I'm happy okay. you said yourself that you've lost count of how many guys Ive liked that haven't liked me back so just stop with the sob sorry. i get that it would suck seeing your best friend with a guy you used to like and I'm sorry but i would appreciate it if you let me and him be happy without interfering or threatening him or anything like that cause that's what a true best friend would do-let me be happy.
I have several best friends and you used to be near the top of the list but now you're at the bottom. to be honest, you're more a friend that a best friend any more yet i know you still feel I'm your best friend. I'm happy to be there for you and help you get through this depression but there nothing else i can do to make the whole me and him thing easier on you.To be honest, no guy would want you at the moment...there's too much baggage but once your happy again I'm sure a guy will fall for you.

You know what sucks the most i get a hug from another best Friend saying "i don't want you to go to china, I'm not gonna let you" whereas all i get from you is "you 're buggering off to gallivanting away to china"

You were with me when i was depressed about not getting into worlds even if the selectors were being stupid. one would think, being my best friend you would be soo happy for me about this and be saying that you're gonna miss me but you hope i do really well like everyone else is.

When he said he was going to miss you last year when you went overseas he meant as a friend. just cause a guy is paying attention to you doesn't mean he likes you. Heck I've learnt that for myself recently. learn from my mistakes please!!!!

Just let go of him....cause right now it seems that since me and him have started getting together you've started liking him again. Don't end up like Othello....cause you sure are going that way.

"Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time I feel alive and the world it's turning inside out Yeah! I'm floating around in ecstasy So don't stop me now don't stop me 'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time"

Forever and Always

You have been my best friend, my sister, my other pea in my pod, my twin since year 8. I love you with all my heart and we have shared some amazing times together but lately...I feel we're getting more and more distant. I had a really crap day yesterday and all i wanted to do was talk to my big sister and everything would be better. I told you a week ago that a guy liked me and asked me to the movies and i got half a conversation out of you....but i haven't felt like i can text you and update you about everything. you are soo happy with your boyfriend and I am over the moon for you but whenever you get a bf the same thing happens....i never hear from you. He takes all priority over your social life and it makes me feel like you don't remember i exist.  Im hopefully moving away next year and i originally thought it would be hard to move away from my longest and bestest best friend but you're making it easier each and every day.
We said forever and always, we were gonna grow old together...never drift apart. Mum always told me that se thougth we would drift away from each other and i never lsitened to it....but now you're making it seem more and more true.
I know we have some really good times when we're together and we never fail to catch up on everything but it would be nice to be able to text you occasionally or to have you ring me spontaneously like you used to on a Friday night.
I love you and I can't wait to see your beautiful smiling again and tell you everything about how ive finally found a guy who i feel so comfortable with and makes me happy and share how i excited i am with you about china.

I'll always love you...forever and always just like we promised. xxxxxx <3
"There's a special kind of freedom sisters enjoy. Freedom to share innermost thoughts, to ask a favor,
to show their true feelings. The freedom to simply be themselves."

mates before dates...to a point

I finally find a decent guy that likes me for who i am and who makes me happy and she can't deal with that. i get that she liked him last year but she's moved on from that...he didn't like her, she was obsessive and clingy and we're all friends now so i don't see the problem. Just because i have something that she wants doesn't mean she has to get all upset about it. one minute shes happy for me and says its fine an next minute shes crying about it.

I've felt like walking out of this friendship so many times but I've stayed because i do still care. i get that you're depressed and all but now i don't give a rats tail because you know you have it but you don't want to do anything about it and I'm sick of you moaning about everything and being in a complete and utter bad moods nearly everyday! We've had some good times...and ill always carry the memories with me wherever i go but right now i just need some space. I hope you understand.....