Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
“To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. You must
keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have 4
legs instead of 2. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must
stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your
heart, instead. That way, you will know God.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage
“To be fully seen by somebody, then, and be loved anyhow - this is a human offering that can border on miraculous.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage
“Prayer is a relationship; half the job is mine. If I want transformation, but can't even be bothered to articulate what, exactly, I'm aiming for, how will it ever occur? Half the benefit of prayer is in the asking itself, in the offering of a clearly posed and well-considered intention. If you don't have this, all your pleas and desires are boneless, floppy, inert; they swirl at your feet in a cold fog and never lift.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a FRIEND…
“There is a reason they call God a presence - because God is right here, right now. In the present is the only place to find Him, and now is the only time.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“There's a reason we refer to "leaps of faith" - because the decision to consent to any notion of divinity is a mighty jump from the rational over to the unknowable, and I don't care how diligently scholars of every religion will try to sit you down with their stacks of books and prove to you through scripture that their faith is indeed rational; it isn't. If faith were rational, it wouldn't be - by definition - faith. Faith is belief in what you cannot see or prove or touch. Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark. If we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be... a prudent insurance policy.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“People tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will descend like fine weather if you're fortunate. But happiness is the result of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert
“Desiring another person is perhaps the most risky endeavor of all. As soon as you want somebody—really want him—it is as though you have taken a surgical needle and sutured your happiness to the skin of that person, so that any separation will now cause a lacerating injury.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage
It's easy enough to pray when you're in distress but continuing to pray even when your crisis has passed is like a sealing process, helping your soul hold tight to its good attainments.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
The karmic philosophy appeals to me on a metaphorical level because even in ones lifetime it's obvious how often we must repeat our same mistakes, banging our heads against the same ole addictions and compulsions, generating the same old miserable and often catastrophic consequences, until we can finally stop and fix it. This is the supreme lesson of karma ( and also of western psychology, by the way)- take care of the problem now, or else you'll just have to suffer again later when you screw everything up the next time. And that repetition of suffering-that's hell. Moving out of that endless repetition to a new level of understanding-there's where you'll find heaven.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage
“To be fully seen by somebody, then, and be loved anyhow - this is a human offering that can border on miraculous.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage
“Prayer is a relationship; half the job is mine. If I want transformation, but can't even be bothered to articulate what, exactly, I'm aiming for, how will it ever occur? Half the benefit of prayer is in the asking itself, in the offering of a clearly posed and well-considered intention. If you don't have this, all your pleas and desires are boneless, floppy, inert; they swirl at your feet in a cold fog and never lift.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a FRIEND…
“There is a reason they call God a presence - because God is right here, right now. In the present is the only place to find Him, and now is the only time.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“There's a reason we refer to "leaps of faith" - because the decision to consent to any notion of divinity is a mighty jump from the rational over to the unknowable, and I don't care how diligently scholars of every religion will try to sit you down with their stacks of books and prove to you through scripture that their faith is indeed rational; it isn't. If faith were rational, it wouldn't be - by definition - faith. Faith is belief in what you cannot see or prove or touch. Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark. If we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be... a prudent insurance policy.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“People tend to think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will descend like fine weather if you're fortunate. But happiness is the result of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert
“Desiring another person is perhaps the most risky endeavor of all. As soon as you want somebody—really want him—it is as though you have taken a surgical needle and sutured your happiness to the skin of that person, so that any separation will now cause a lacerating injury.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage
It's easy enough to pray when you're in distress but continuing to pray even when your crisis has passed is like a sealing process, helping your soul hold tight to its good attainments.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
The karmic philosophy appeals to me on a metaphorical level because even in ones lifetime it's obvious how often we must repeat our same mistakes, banging our heads against the same ole addictions and compulsions, generating the same old miserable and often catastrophic consequences, until we can finally stop and fix it. This is the supreme lesson of karma ( and also of western psychology, by the way)- take care of the problem now, or else you'll just have to suffer again later when you screw everything up the next time. And that repetition of suffering-that's hell. Moving out of that endless repetition to a new level of understanding-there's where you'll find heaven.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert
You came shopping with us yesterday, it was slightly awkward but it was nice. For the first time in a long time i felt like I had my best guy mate back... we could insult each other and punch each other like good ole times, the times i miss. the times where i knew i could talk to you about anything end everything, the times where i knew i could rely on you to be there for me when i needed you....... I can't help but feel things have changed since you came to the ball..... i know the ball wasn't the funnest of nights for you but you have to look at it from my perspective..... the first thing you said to me when i saw you was "you look amazing" i was flattered, but you were only my best guy mate and that's not what i wanted to hear... "you look nice" would've done the same thing but without the awkwardness...you and me, we had a good friendship... we cold insult and punch each other all we liked but we could also have good conversations as well....when you came to the ball you weren't that person.... as bad as it sounds you were a gentleman... holding the door open for me, offering me your coat.... that's not what i invited you to be... i invited you to be my good guy mate and to have some good fun..... i am sorry i wasn't the best that night but it was quite difficult.....it was almost as if i had been set up on a blind date with someone i had never met before......that's how it felt to me... I know you had you GF's ball 2 weeks before and so you were probably all gentleman there and that's fine, you're kinda spose to be when your her BF but not when we're just mates i didn't want you being all like that.... Yesterday reminded me of what i had been missing all this time... i don't know how to talk to you about it so you can understand and i know you wont see this cause you have no idea i have a blog but somehow i just want you to know that this is why i wasn't the best that night.... and the slow dance!!!! That was the most awkwardest thing ever!!!!!!!!!!! It wasn't like it was for a laugh even!!!! I was happy to sit there and watch all the COUPLES slow dance and then maybe get up with my best friend for a laugh and if me and you had done it for a laugh it would've been fine but it wasn't... it was too much.... I know you were just trying to make it a really god night for me but honestly, i think it would've been better if you had just relaxed and not thought about it all..... then maybe just maybe, I still would feel like i could come to you about anything....... I used to always tell you about guys... I havent told you about it recently...... i think you found out a bit yesterday but nowhere as much as you would normally know..... i don't know if that's just cause it's so similar to what me and you had or just cause we've been so distant lately.... the only time i hear from you is when you text both me and my best friend at the same time, a one worded text. and even then the convo doesn't last cause you're going to your GF's or you're going to youth or something...... Just let me know when i get my best guy mate back... please... cause i really miss him.....
Sunday, December 25, 2011
I'm happy for you but why does it seem like you're rubbing it in? It doesn't hurt so much now... im dealing with it but all of that right after im honest with you????? You couldnt've done it earlier or at least waited for a bit to spare my feelings???? I will never understand your relationship with her but i am happy for you and i want you to know that......you're better as a friend and i know that now.... i will talk to you properly eventually..... just not yet
Friday, December 23, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
You don't know you're beautiful
You're insecure
Don't know what for
You're turning heads when you walk through the door
Everyone else but you
Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground it aint hard to tell
You don't know
Oh Oh
You don't know you're beautiful
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful
Oh oh
But that's what makes you beautiful
You are amazing, you may have hurt me but i don't really care, you should be aware of everything you have going for you so you understand just how i feel about you.......
Don't know what for
You're turning heads when you walk through the door
Being the way that you are is enough
Everyone else in the room can see itEveryone else but you
Baby you light up my world like nobody else
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed
But when you smile at the ground it aint hard to tell
You don't know
Oh Oh
You don't know you're beautiful
If only you saw what I can see
You'll understand why I want you so desperately
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe
You don't know
Oh oh
You don't know you're beautiful
Oh oh
But that's what makes you beautiful
You are amazing, you may have hurt me but i don't really care, you should be aware of everything you have going for you so you understand just how i feel about you.......
My past...
Not many people know about my past... not the ones important to me in my life right now.... i guess cause that was the old me.... what's the point in knowing the old me when you know the new me and im not going to change..... i plan to get baptised in the new year..... in this i will be cleansed of my past and will be reborn.... i look forward to that day.....where i can put my past behind me forever and be born a godly woman......
In a way the one im closest to now doesn't know about that..... but i don't know if i want them to... i know they have a past to so maybe it wouldn't be soo bad.... but you cant really just talk about it...... someone kinda brought it up tonight.... provoked this blog... they said they wandered if i was as cute and innocent as i seem.... i am now.... just didnt use to be... i wasnt going to open up to them though.... i barely know them..
I'm not proud of who i used to be... that's why i dont like to talk about it and the person that was involved isnt even a close mate anymore.... i wish they were..... i guess if i really want to change they wont be a big part of my life.....
Well thats all i have to say... its all a bit unended but i dont know what else to say... just needed to say that....
In a way the one im closest to now doesn't know about that..... but i don't know if i want them to... i know they have a past to so maybe it wouldn't be soo bad.... but you cant really just talk about it...... someone kinda brought it up tonight.... provoked this blog... they said they wandered if i was as cute and innocent as i seem.... i am now.... just didnt use to be... i wasnt going to open up to them though.... i barely know them..
I'm not proud of who i used to be... that's why i dont like to talk about it and the person that was involved isnt even a close mate anymore.... i wish they were..... i guess if i really want to change they wont be a big part of my life.....
Well thats all i have to say... its all a bit unended but i dont know what else to say... just needed to say that....
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Fight for your dreams
I wish I could do something that would make it better. Seeing you in pain tonight sucked and I couldn't do anything. I couldn't offer advice or anything. You had such a crap day as it was and this just really topped it off for you....This shouldn't happen, its only been 18 months and I know that that's what makes it so bad and hard to see you deal with.... You were so good for me when i was injured and down in the dumps but your situation is much worse and i don't know what to do but pray.... There's no advice I can give you really....i can suggest things to do and people to see but that's it.......I know how much you want this because I want it to and i want to see you get there, I want to get there.. i want to be able to say "we did it" and truth be told if we did get there it wouldn't have been without each others help.....both physically and emotionally. We're always there to push each other and to provide emotional support when needed.... and sometimes just to talk about how bad our days were....or how good they were..... or even just to annoy each other and joke around. I want to help but I cant... I want to talk to you but I don't know what to say.... It seems like you just a need a big hug to make you feel better but that could be weird.....I just want you to be able to chase your dream with nothing holding you back, i want you to see you fight for this and achieve your dream.I don't want to see you miss this as much as I don't want to miss this.... I will be praying though cause I believe that God can help you through this emotionally and physically......maybe you need to come to Church and get healed???? I don't know what else I can do to help......but I'll always be here for you to talk to about it... about anything...
Thursday, December 8, 2011
You are fine, you are sweet
Fine, I'm still a bit naive with my heart
When you're close, I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak and I feel sparks
But I don't wanna be into you
If you're not looking for true love
No, I don't wanna start seeing you
If I can't be your only one,
I dont like you atm..... just finall yfound a song that explained how i do feel.....
Fine, I'm still a bit naive with my heart
When you're close, I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak and I feel sparks
But I don't wanna be into you
If you're not looking for true love
No, I don't wanna start seeing you
If I can't be your only one,
I dont like you atm..... just finall yfound a song that explained how i do feel.....
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Blinded by Love
You said the other night you would never let her prevent you talking to your girl mates cause you have too many and you trust each other enough for that to not be a problem...so why the flip are you letting her prevent you from coming on our tramp????!!!!
If you she's having trust issues now, cause your going away for what 30 hours? with 3 other girls when you've spent just about all your other free time with her... you dont think maybe she's being a bit greedy? She gets yo u all to herself next year when you "elope" to America together!! Is she the one that suggested you move with here, not wait till you are going on your mission????
Maybe you are blinded by love and you can't see the fact that she's taking control over your life..... She's now stopping you from spending time with 3 really good mates...
Lately, you have been such a good friend, you have been there for me and all that but now im seeing you go down the road of my last best guy friend, becoming so obsessed with you girlfriend that you have no interest in spending time with anyone else!
You opened up to me the other night which is not something i was expecting....... but i didn't think it was going to be the last heart to heart conversation we would have.....I was going to buy a really nice birthday card today.... because that's how much you mean to me, as a friend, but im questioning it because i dont want you girlfriend to get jealous.....I found the perfect card for you but now your all in GF mode and that doesn't make me feel like i want to give it to you.... i mean when am i going to see you again anyway??!!! You're now nt coming on the tramp and i could get it to you at leavers diner but i dont want to do it in front of everyone... its a personal thing.....and Judging by the way you Gf is being we probably wont be able to hang out just as mates...... I'm gonna try though cause a friend like you is something special to have and i think that should be appreciated.
I'm also thinking of getting you a Christmas pressie.... just something little.....i found a couple of things one little and one a bit more expensive that i cant really afford but it was so you. this other thing though, it summed up the greatness of a friend like you in a nutshell....
You told me the other night something that made me want to cry, not cause i was upset about it but i dont know i just wanted to cry but didnt.....You said that you had feelings for me when we started really getting along well.... I had feeling s for you as well but i kept them under my hat......well to you anyway.. i denied it at first but i couldn't any longer.....you said that you hadn't been just midnlessly flirting with me all that time, you did actaully have feelings for me... but when we started becoming really close you had to make your mind up.. you said "it was her, its always been her" . I accept that and thats fine... but knowing you had feelings for me and knowing all the stuff you said and when yo utold me you meant it all my heart ached..... she is such a lucky girl to have you but
(non biass) if shes going to try and take over your life then its not worth it.....
You are so amazing.. i know ive told you that but you are...... you said if it was earlier in the year, the whole me and you thing, you might have actually gone there....If you feel like that then you shouldn't be with her!!!! (Non biass again) You are so incredible and just well everything and yeah i may think you are sorta in a cult but everyone is free to believe in whatever they like.........the only reason i think your in a cult is cause i don't think that anywhere in the bible it says you can drink coffee or tea or take painkillers....and you get sent to the other side of the world to preach the gospel... they have people in their own countries to do that..... you said the men are pretty much forced to go.... that's not fair....Anyway.. the point im getting to is that you're the kind of guy i could picture myself with........ But i know that's never gonna happen cause you have been in love with her and still am and rah rah rah but if you were in love with her then you shouldn't consider leaving her for someone you had just started to get to know........... okay yeah i would've felt terrible if you did but maybe it would've worked...??? who knows? But i think that when you came out and were honest with me the other night i maybe might've got butterflies... i don't know... maybe they were hidden by the heartache that i felt....If you two ere so in love and you've been at UHC all year then why do you never hang out? We never see you even associate with each other....that's a bit weird don't you think?
I don't know what im getting at here.. i've kinda lost track........but you are a great guy and you don't deserve to be wrapped around a girls finger, you should be allowed to have independence.... maybe at the age of 16 she cant understand that just cause you spend time with 3 other girls for 30 odd hours doesn't mean that anything would happen???!!!! And it shouldn't if you are as in love with her as you say you are......
Right its nearly 11pm i have racing i nthe w.e and you have made me really annoyed! I havent needed to update FB or go on blog because ive been happy! I gave something up to God for this first time and it felt AMAZING! I guess it time to do it with this aswell... maybe.... or maybe he wants to see me work with his guidance first... we'll see...... Ill leave with those though......
You are handsome, kind, caring, funny, athletic(secretly), honest, down to earth, God living...... I dont know what more one could want in a guy....... You are one special friend to me and you are truly a blessing from God. I wish you well with your relationship and moving to America. This is it....... "Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you two
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
I love you in a friend way and if she ever hurts you or whenwver you need a friend i'm always here, dont forget about me please.
If you she's having trust issues now, cause your going away for what 30 hours? with 3 other girls when you've spent just about all your other free time with her... you dont think maybe she's being a bit greedy? She gets yo u all to herself next year when you "elope" to America together!! Is she the one that suggested you move with here, not wait till you are going on your mission????
Maybe you are blinded by love and you can't see the fact that she's taking control over your life..... She's now stopping you from spending time with 3 really good mates...
Lately, you have been such a good friend, you have been there for me and all that but now im seeing you go down the road of my last best guy friend, becoming so obsessed with you girlfriend that you have no interest in spending time with anyone else!
You opened up to me the other night which is not something i was expecting....... but i didn't think it was going to be the last heart to heart conversation we would have.....I was going to buy a really nice birthday card today.... because that's how much you mean to me, as a friend, but im questioning it because i dont want you girlfriend to get jealous.....I found the perfect card for you but now your all in GF mode and that doesn't make me feel like i want to give it to you.... i mean when am i going to see you again anyway??!!! You're now nt coming on the tramp and i could get it to you at leavers diner but i dont want to do it in front of everyone... its a personal thing.....and Judging by the way you Gf is being we probably wont be able to hang out just as mates...... I'm gonna try though cause a friend like you is something special to have and i think that should be appreciated.
I'm also thinking of getting you a Christmas pressie.... just something little.....i found a couple of things one little and one a bit more expensive that i cant really afford but it was so you. this other thing though, it summed up the greatness of a friend like you in a nutshell....
You told me the other night something that made me want to cry, not cause i was upset about it but i dont know i just wanted to cry but didnt.....You said that you had feelings for me when we started really getting along well.... I had feeling s for you as well but i kept them under my hat......well to you anyway.. i denied it at first but i couldn't any longer.....you said that you hadn't been just midnlessly flirting with me all that time, you did actaully have feelings for me... but when we started becoming really close you had to make your mind up.. you said "it was her, its always been her" . I accept that and thats fine... but knowing you had feelings for me and knowing all the stuff you said and when yo utold me you meant it all my heart ached..... she is such a lucky girl to have you but
(non biass) if shes going to try and take over your life then its not worth it.....
You are so amazing.. i know ive told you that but you are...... you said if it was earlier in the year, the whole me and you thing, you might have actually gone there....If you feel like that then you shouldn't be with her!!!! (Non biass again) You are so incredible and just well everything and yeah i may think you are sorta in a cult but everyone is free to believe in whatever they like.........the only reason i think your in a cult is cause i don't think that anywhere in the bible it says you can drink coffee or tea or take painkillers....and you get sent to the other side of the world to preach the gospel... they have people in their own countries to do that..... you said the men are pretty much forced to go.... that's not fair....Anyway.. the point im getting to is that you're the kind of guy i could picture myself with........ But i know that's never gonna happen cause you have been in love with her and still am and rah rah rah but if you were in love with her then you shouldn't consider leaving her for someone you had just started to get to know........... okay yeah i would've felt terrible if you did but maybe it would've worked...??? who knows? But i think that when you came out and were honest with me the other night i maybe might've got butterflies... i don't know... maybe they were hidden by the heartache that i felt....If you two ere so in love and you've been at UHC all year then why do you never hang out? We never see you even associate with each other....that's a bit weird don't you think?
I don't know what im getting at here.. i've kinda lost track........but you are a great guy and you don't deserve to be wrapped around a girls finger, you should be allowed to have independence.... maybe at the age of 16 she cant understand that just cause you spend time with 3 other girls for 30 odd hours doesn't mean that anything would happen???!!!! And it shouldn't if you are as in love with her as you say you are......
Right its nearly 11pm i have racing i nthe w.e and you have made me really annoyed! I havent needed to update FB or go on blog because ive been happy! I gave something up to God for this first time and it felt AMAZING! I guess it time to do it with this aswell... maybe.... or maybe he wants to see me work with his guidance first... we'll see...... Ill leave with those though......
You are handsome, kind, caring, funny, athletic(secretly), honest, down to earth, God living...... I dont know what more one could want in a guy....... You are one special friend to me and you are truly a blessing from God. I wish you well with your relationship and moving to America. This is it....... "Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you two
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
I love you in a friend way and if she ever hurts you or whenwver you need a friend i'm always here, dont forget about me please.
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